I’ve been thinking ( out loud 
) a lot lately about relationships and their timing and the perspective about it all.
Y’all are probably like, gosh this girl gets a boyfriend and think she’s like a relationship expert now and wants to talk about it all the time. So not true! However, I spent a lot of time waiting for the “right one” and keeping my stubbornness and perspective that it was more important for me to wait to find someone who was what I was looking for, and not just someone for right now.
Biggest Loser used to be one of my favorite shows – full disclosure that I don’t watch anymore after a lot of changes within the show and the message changing – but Season 11 was one of the last ones I watched, loved and connected with the participants.
One participant in particular that I saw so much of myself in was that season’s runner up (her sister was the one who took 1st place!), Hannah Curlee.
Hannah and Olivia (her sister) at the beginning of the show.
I saw so much of myself in Hannah because we were at the same points in our life. Overweight, feeling not deserving of love and not very in love with ourselves.
Of course, she’s at her goal weight now and I’m still not there, but one thing I have changed about myself is that I now love myself, and in doing so it allowed someone else to love me too. I remember the person I was when I saw that she was engaged (and was so happy for her – so weird when you don’t actually know the person but feel like you do!), and the person I was when I wrote that comment to her. I never thought I would find someone.
Her advice was perfect: “Keep learning to love yourself and be comfortable in your own skin and it will! It seemed like forever yet it feels right on time ;)” Of course, I knew that but hearing it from someone you respect and admire helped a lot. Now, I totally get what she meant about feeling like it took forever but also that it feels right on time.
The timing was never right before, but now it is. The scars from the past brought me to this place, and they are beautiful. Our life together is beautiful. It’s all about perspective. It’s all about timing.
I’m happier than I ever thought I could be, so in love sometimes I can’t believe this is MY life. That I get to live this life. Be in love and be so loved in return.
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I’m so thankful for God’s perfect timing, and for this man who loves me: flaws and all.
